Hello again, much neglected blog. Where have I been? I have been taking care of children, sewing, cooking, trying to clean my house, working part time, all the things we all try to keep up with as moms. I thought about you a lot, composed many entries in my head, had many projects to show you, but alas, never made it to the computer.
Anywho, here I am, back to you. I hope to be better about posting but no promises:)
So last night I attended my church Circle group. The topic of discussion was New Year's resolutions and the wonderful ladies in our group had some great ideas. The ideas involved family, work, personal time, but all centered on balance. What a tricky word that is for moms. I know it is for me. I have started back to lawyering as a consultant but may have to ramp those hours up even more for various reasons.
My return to work means that I will have to address issues of balance in a more intensified way than I have in the past two years. I have grown so much while not working in all areas of my life. I don't want to lose what I've learned and I hope to be a more balanced and centered working mom than I was before.
I feel closer to my children and more connected with them than ever before. It took me a little time to learn to just be with them, listen to them, hang out with them without constantly worrying about work. They are growing and changing into their own individual selves and it is so cool (and sometimes scary and frustrating) to watch that process. I must make sure to hang on to that connection.
I also have grown exponentially as a creative person. I have completed several quilts, learned more than I can even enumerate about quilting, sewing, piecing, color, texture, etc., and have made many garments as well. This creativity makes me so happy, which benefits everyone in my family.
The lack of stress and light heartedness I have cultivated over the last two years has been a gift I did not realize I needed. When I run into lawyers I used to work with, they without fail comment on how much happier I am. I am chattier with supermarket personnel, I smile at bank people (for the most part) even when they are enforcing all of their ridiculous rules that prevent me from accessing my own money. (Don't get me started on this subject!) I actually have lunch with friends for no reason except to just catch up. I hope that I can keep this perspective as a I move forward.
So to sum up, here are my new rules:
(1) Work only while the kids are at school or asleep.
(2) Do something creative at least 3 times per week.
(3) Try my very hardest not to take everything so seriously.
Think it will work? I don't know. But I am going to give it a shot:)